Life In Tinseltown

Bittersweet

It started out sweet today. I got to wake up with the boys thanks to a midsummer party last night, even though it’s not my weekend with them. Tom woke up first, as always, put his hand on my face and said I love you mama. Henry took a little longer, tired after a late  night. He woke up with a smile, wanting candy. Breakfast first, I said.

They were going to the beach, they were both happy to go, in theory. When it was time to leave Henry held me hard and cried. I miss you all the time, he said, and did not want to let go. Tom’s eyes were serious as he looked at me through the window of the car. I know that I give them my everything when I’m with them. But I’m not always there, and it breaks my heart.

And they were having a fantastic day at the beach, of course. They were happy, played in the waves, Tom had even said that the water was way better than electronics. And that says a lot.

So I took some time to take care of me today. Thinking that the best way to spend my day without the boys is to make sure I’m a better mom when I’m with them. Inside and out.

My first stop was to get a little something for the soul.

photo 2(3)I cried at the end. It’s happened before, but today was different.

photo 1(3)Then something for my body. This magical place. Carasoin day spa.

Carasoin_Day_Spa_Americas_med_1They really took care of me. Asked if I wanted tea. Yes please, lemon and chamomille.

photo 4(2)The tea didn’t quite take that feeling in my stomach away, but it helped a little. It was sweet.

photo 2(2)I try to be there fully, always. And I try to be patient. And kind. And patient again. And I listen. When I’m there I’m there.

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Vilken fin text, Malin. Förstår hur du känner. Det där svarta hålet i magen. Men är övertygad om att det precis är som du säger, att du är där helt och fullt när du är där. Och att pojkarna vet att du finns där, även när ni inte är tillsammans.

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Fint Malin, du och dina boys!

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Malin, fint skrivet!
Känner igen känslan…
Du är grym med dina barn!
Stor kram

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Hej Malin, Det är kul när det kommer mer personliga texter från dig. Nog för att det är trevligt med inlägg om soul cycle, restauranger etc men det är de som handlar om dina söner och dig själv, dina tankar om föräldraskapet etc, som jag att i alla fall jag kommer tillbaka.

Lever du ensam med dina söner? Är deras pappa amerikan eller svensk?

Tack för att du delar med dig!

MVH
Johanna

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